Looking for God?

Why does god have to be something outside of yourself?

 What if Jesus was just a normal person?

 

Oh wait... he was. 

What if the bible was written by normal people who were just living their days hoping for some other guy to save them?

 

Oh yeah.. It was.

 

 

And what if I had the power to choose what I thought God was without it being a magical experience that validates someone else instead of myself? 

 

Oh I do... and I did. 

Stop criticizing each other. Youre all the same. Youre all different. Love, inspiration, and creativity are gods. Poly theistic religions may not be as far off as presumed. So why are these religions dead? Why doesnt anyone worship Zeus or Osiris? Why am I looked at funny when I tell people I think they are still right?

Outside of the norm... Outside of yourself. Be free, dont let your mind be chained by your elders and peers. Stop being shallow. Look deep. Who better to look deep inside you than yourself. Stop looking for it from others.

The baby

Its weird when my kid learns something new. Its weird when I realize that I dont think of him.. and never really have as a baby. He seems like an adult that is relearning things. He never seems unintelligent or stupid from not having knowledge. He just seems like he needs help remembering. Is this weird? Are all kids like this? He wants to learn. he wants to be good and listen. He wants to push boundaries. Im proud.

Mantras and unicorns

I'm exhausted mentally. I AK super awesome at my job, and I'm good at grounding, staying neutral, and no longer being an irresponsible empath, but people constantly gnawing at my shell is tiring. With Kyle's heavy load of problems, a baby, a silent boyfriend, and a needy Dave I'm over exerted.
Life coaching helped filled me up with appreciation but its hard to hold on to that when no one in ky home goes out of their for me. Not even to listen to me.

Its ok, because Ive got this.. Ive always got it together...

Born into music

There's still a part of me that feels like she's missing out on something in her life by now being the singer of a band. I've always felt like it was my destiny to sing. I would be great but time just doesn't allow it. I accept life the way it is, things never turn out like to plan any way. Part of me still wants to try. Part of me yarns for that creative outlet. I'll keep making music for on my computer.. but trays hard anymore with a house full of people. Maybe Seattle will help me fix this. Hypno is completely what I know I should be doing now. Stupid fountain hills kids and Facebook.