I'm soooo excited.
My life is on the up and up.
I have experienced love at first sight.
I have experienced meeting the person that your soul has always craved. I didn't know how I would ever fix that feeling in my heart that said "I have a twin" and "I have the perfect best friend somewhere."
I met the person that sings to my soul.
The person who says every word exactly like I need to hear it. Every action is what I need to witness.
It came as quite a shock. And it's intense. It's real. Every cell of my being feels fulfilled. Every neuron in my brain firing at the highest frequency. I'm in love. Just the way I need to be.
My fears are justified. My feelings are overwhelming. My heart is blossoming. I embodying bliss.
And it's shocking. Even more shocking...it's a girl.
But it all makes so. much. sense!
I feel exhilarated. I feel exonerated. I feel free. I feel pushed forward instead of pulled back.
I feel special and honored and important. And loved. I FEEL SO MUCH LOVE.
more people than I REALIZED could hear my heart whispering that I needed more. That I was being crushed.
And more people than I REALIZED hurt my heart screaming when I first saw her.
It did. I knew in an instant what I was doing.
And it all makes sense.
She is a complete reflection of all of my hopes and dreams and goals. She has my humor and personalities and love of music and helping people.
She's amazing. She's beautiful. When she speaks I'm captivated. She seems to always know how I need to be loved.
She wakes up if I leave her side. She's random and adventurous. She's intellectual and hilarious. What in the world is happening!? She makes sure I feel honored and respected. I want so badly to make her as happy as possible.
If I'm sad she knows immediately. She feels it. I feel her frustrations and hear her covering up her feelings to be strong. When we aren't even together she texts me asking if I'm OK.
Our texts are a cheesy, but infitinely beautiful romance novel. She brings things out of me I didn't know were there.
I feel powerful and amplified. I am smart and funny and inspired again. She gave me such a gift just by existing. And everything between us is reciprocated. I feel at ease when she's near me, no matter what.
And there's no going back. I know I'm making the right decision, and there is no doubt in my mind that the right decision for me is to love her with everything I can.
And trust that she's always doing the same.
It feels so freeing.
I'm so excited.
I just can't hide it.
Because I'm in love.
