I wish someone would take care of me.
I wish I could get too drunk.
Or too sick. Or too tired. I wish I was the one who failed or collapsed from exhaustion and someone would be there to hold me and tell me its OK.
That just may never be a thing for me. I feel like I'm in trouble if I inconvenience anyone.
I'll never be able to be weak. Its my own fault.
Alright. Full disclosure post. I (as well as my friends) have been getting messages, phone calls, etc...
Here goes: *lights a cig in a hunter s Thompson holder and sits down at the typewriter*
Most of you know and my Facebook presence is lacking. Sorry to let down fans and shit. My life has been dramatic lately but you can message me and ask me ANYTHING! Thank you all for caring enough to ask about me.
About 4 months ago I fell in love. I already loved someone but was not deeply in love. This was love at first site, "omg there you are! I've been searching for you my whole life. I can't be away from you another second" love. I had to make a very difficult decision and blew all I knew out of the water. I asked so many of you what I should do. Especially Candace and Boo. Thank you so much. Thank you Holly and Aundria and Ostman for being here for me. I asked what to do and every one said "follow your bliss. Always." Thank you for supporting me. Eben my parents just told me to be happy and make sure its what makes me happy. I'm so lucky and loved!
It's perfect the way it is now. It was dramatic at times but it wasn't a huge blow up. Adam and I don't hate each other. We are working together for the kids and just want each other to be happy. This would have been easier if he was a bad person but he's a wonderful father. He just wasn't my life partner. He wasn't my teammate.
No I'm not a lesbian. No I'm not bisexual. Really, up until now I was nothing. All of you that I have told have said the same thing, "I'm not surprised. You always loved people for their minds and not their shell"
I love HER. And I'm happy. Labels are silly.
Just be in love if you can. Follow your own path, even when its scary.
