RAINBOW TEMPLES

SO I always come up with these insane ideas that arent insane at all.. they are completely plausable.... I just came up with a fun one Thanks to a friends Facebook post.

Its completely understandable that in a RELIGIOUS sense gays should be allowed to get married and they shouldnt be able to do it in a certain religions temple/church, because why would you put something in a church that is against what the church stands for?

But now its a legal issue. There is no reason that anyone shouldnt be allowed to be legally married. thats just intolerant and ignorant.... so I pose an idea.

RAINBOW TEMPLES. Why couldnt we have sweet ass temples that celebrate every religion? They could host sweet events. Sunday, Catholic mass, Monday Buddhist meditation day,  Thursday Druid tree dance celebration, etc.... Anyone can throw fun religious events. And ANYONE can get married with the correct paperwork. Why not guys?

There happens to be members of almost every religion that suppost everyone else. You can be Christian and love your Islamic brother, and white and black people get along pretty well these days... WHy not celebrate differences as well as common goals in one huge "I LOVE YOU DESPITE IT AND I LOVE YOU BECAUSE OF IT AT THE SAME TIME" celebrations. Tolerance is fun guys. Get on Board.

Adventures... A longing

I still long for that friend to go on random adventures with.

Will I ever have a friend that actually calls me and invites me out? Will anyone go out of their way to want to see me?

Random quote from me

"I've lived a privileged life. There was no silver spoon, but I was surrounded by hearts of gold."

Looking for God?

Why does god have to be something outside of yourself?

 What if Jesus was just a normal person?

 

Oh wait... he was. 

What if the bible was written by normal people who were just living their days hoping for some other guy to save them?

 

Oh yeah.. It was.

 

 

And what if I had the power to choose what I thought God was without it being a magical experience that validates someone else instead of myself? 

 

Oh I do... and I did. 

Stop criticizing each other. Youre all the same. Youre all different. Love, inspiration, and creativity are gods. Poly theistic religions may not be as far off as presumed. So why are these religions dead? Why doesnt anyone worship Zeus or Osiris? Why am I looked at funny when I tell people I think they are still right?

Outside of the norm... Outside of yourself. Be free, dont let your mind be chained by your elders and peers. Stop being shallow. Look deep. Who better to look deep inside you than yourself. Stop looking for it from others.

The baby

Its weird when my kid learns something new. Its weird when I realize that I dont think of him.. and never really have as a baby. He seems like an adult that is relearning things. He never seems unintelligent or stupid from not having knowledge. He just seems like he needs help remembering. Is this weird? Are all kids like this? He wants to learn. he wants to be good and listen. He wants to push boundaries. Im proud.

Mantras and unicorns

I'm exhausted mentally. I AK super awesome at my job, and I'm good at grounding, staying neutral, and no longer being an irresponsible empath, but people constantly gnawing at my shell is tiring. With Kyle's heavy load of problems, a baby, a silent boyfriend, and a needy Dave I'm over exerted.
Life coaching helped filled me up with appreciation but its hard to hold on to that when no one in ky home goes out of their for me. Not even to listen to me.

Its ok, because Ive got this.. Ive always got it together...

Born into music

There's still a part of me that feels like she's missing out on something in her life by now being the singer of a band. I've always felt like it was my destiny to sing. I would be great but time just doesn't allow it. I accept life the way it is, things never turn out like to plan any way. Part of me still wants to try. Part of me yarns for that creative outlet. I'll keep making music for on my computer.. but trays hard anymore with a house full of people. Maybe Seattle will help me fix this. Hypno is completely what I know I should be doing now. Stupid fountain hills kids and Facebook.

I believe I can see the future....

As nine inch nails song "every day is exactly the same" plays in my head and tears stream down my face I am accidently reminded that everything isn't the sake every day like I had thought, its actually getting harder. All of this tome over the past months I've just grinned and waited for more...
"I believe I van see the future cause I repeat the same routine..."
Is it possible that every time a baby is born all of the hopes and dreams the parents ever had get condensed, not diminished, into this tiny creature made of pure love and joy? Does this make everything I ever wanted to accomplish while I was young belong to him?
"I used to believe I had a purpose.."
It's hard to get my head around where I am when I'm stuck in this Damn house with no money to move forward?
"I think I used to have a voice. Now I never make a sound..."

Im vitamized!

Ive been taking hawthorne berry, kava kava, and a b complex. I feel better.

I kept getting this strange feeling that something was missing, I couldnt find what it is. The Hawthorne is helping with that heartache. I know myself and that feeling didnt belong to me, it was someone elses. I hate feeling others so deeply.

But Im happy and sure of myself as always, so I keep going.

Oliver had a terrible fever yesterday. We almost had to go to the hospital. I spent so much time holding and loving on him that today he learned to hug me! Its amazing to have a tiny man hug you right from love.

Brianna told me about a school in Kenmore for holistic medicine, and Im super stoked. I cant wait to get out of AZ. a new school, new place, new people. NEW WEATHER. My baby boy can climb trees with me and run through forests!

Im really glad I met Bri, its unbelievable how much like me she. shes pretty damn awesome. I feel really good about it =)

so what else? Nothing can hold me down any more. NO ONE will affect my truth. Im pretty confident in who I am.. not that I havent always been but sometimes people make me doubt me. Damn my extroversion!

But its all good in the end .... <3