I dunno

I just need to get some stuff out. It feels sad , not depress not stressed out. Just sad. kyle has a tumor on his pituitary gland. He's sad and there's not much I can do except for pump him up and get him to eat healthier.

My cousins and super depressed and all leads back to his mom dying what I can do about that either for listen.

Boo just went out to go shopping at Target. She said she's bored. I wish you and hang out with me. shes supposed to be my best friend. She never wants to make videos anymore or talk to me. last night I was crying right in front of her and she was on the phone and she just left the room to go to talk on the phone. She never asked me what's wrong. I wish she had any interest in being my friend.

My mom talk to Lizzy. She's trying to get pregnant what is interesting is so am I. She blocked me on Facebook after the last time I told her that I hope she's happy and I love her still. But she told my mom that she scared to talk to me cause she thought I was still matter which makes no sense because I'm always messaging her telling her I wish we were friends.

Feels like I don't have any friends. I find myself always contacting other people to catch up no one ever contacts me or really cares what I'm up to. I guess I'm having a day where I feel like I'm not good enough even for myself.

I posted on Facebook last night that I was crying in the only person that said anything including my mom was Allen so I wouldn't talk to him. It made me feel a lot better though. I feel stagnant I feel like I'm just cleaning every day I feel like I'm not going anywhere right now still stuck. I don't really know what to do about it and no one else seems to really care to help me...